Bad Day--- I'm feeling depressed

Alot of things have been in my mind... Baby is sick twice this month and she has not been able to get the jab done. Not sure when and how but since baby begin to get interested with the world and uninterested with feeding, my milk supply has been decreasing. Blame me for not expressing conscientiously (thinking that I would like to drag the hours longer so that I can express less number of times in sch) Well, the consequence is my supply decrease drastically, my storage in fridge is depleting, and I'm worried my milk career will end VERY SOON :( 

What else? adopting the baby whisperer method to coax Baby to sleep independently seems not as successful and nowadays Chloe will fuss when she is abt to sleep. My Hb says I train her to cry b4 sleep :( Im sadded. Is this what I want? No definitely not. Chloe, Mummy is juz trying to teach you how to sleep independently and sleep for longer hours. What else…. time with Chloe is running out and I will nid to go back to work very very soon. so little time yet so many things I wanna do.. All these things have been running on my mind continuously and Im feeling so blue. As I write this post, I am reminded God will nv give me more than what I can take. I will survive by God’s wondrous grace… and it is this season that unto us a King is born. Praise God from whom all blessings flow. Im glad that no matter what happens, God is still in control! 明天会更好！amen

Adopting Baby Whisperer method Part 2

Have been adopting Tracy Hoggs' method for coming to 3 weeks. During this period of time, I have been very conscious abt wat time Chloe sleep, sleep for how long and her feeding pattern. Despite following the methods, Chloe did not seem to be adapting well and this is pretty demoralising. What went wrong? Did I not observe the sleep window and miss it? Did I not set the setting well? Did I do the “pick up put down”wrongly?

Whenever it comes to nap time and I experience Chloe fussing, crying (telling me she dont know how to sleep) it makes me wonder whether Im a bad mummy and doing the wrong things to her.  Im kinda helpless...

New thing for Chloe

She looks juz like a princess on her 皇位!

Sick for a second time

Chloe has not recover fully since she was hit with bronchitis and now she is down with flu again. Went to see Dr Siaw yesterday and Im sadded cos Chloe nid to continue to take more med. Hope she will get well soon so that she can take the long delayed jab. btw had her weighed and seems like for 1 mth plus she oni gain abt 700g. Seems like she nid more food or becos she is unwell so she did not gain much! Really nid her to get into the able to sleep well and eat well mode!

Chloe dines out with爷爷、奶奶、叔叔、姑姑、Jethro kor kor、daddy and mummy. Its Mummy’s birthday celebration!

We went for a dinner @ Swensen @Causeway pt and met 五叔五婶Casmond and Caston @ Swensen too. in the end we had dinner together.. what a coincident！subsequently, we went to Dear’s place to cut cake!

                         Our first 全家福！

BB dines out with阿公，阿麽，daddy and mummy.

Have been praying for bb to recover so that we can go out for dinner and yesterday bb seems to be much better le. Thank God for healing! we went to 四川豆花@UOB Plaza for ala carte dinner and the food was good!

Getting ready to go out! Chloe’s all ready in her winter costume in case she caught a cold again.

@ sichuan dou hua; Chloe sitting @ sofa by herself

guess what! Chloe is tired and is sleeping @ the sofa. mummy can finally eat in peace..

Chloe oni sleep for like 15 mins and she is awake again! Daddy and 阿麽take take turn to carry and entertain her!

     

After dinner, at foot of UOB plaza along spore river…

I enjoy my advance birthday dinner with family :)

Praise the Lord for the sweet fellowship with my beloved ones!

Adopting Baby Whisperers method

Eversince Baby Chloe arrive home, I have been trying to keep her under Gina Ford’s routine. However, despite many attempts, I am nv able to keep her by the routine. Recently, I saw the Baby Whisperers book from library and I find the book quite useful. Henceforth, I decide to buy the book and explore further. Hopefully the book will benefit baby and us!

Third Day since seeing Doctor

Today is the third day since seeing Doctor but Chloe doesn’t seems to be recovering despite taking the medicine. :( Doctor oni says we bring her back for review if she runs a temp or feels breatheless…. so we could oni wait and pray for God to heal Chloe real soon… Daddy Patrick also took childcare leave to stay home to care for bb… 

Chloe celebrate birthday for 阿公！

Since Chloe needs to stay at home to recuperate, we postpone our dine out session and only celebrate 阿公’s brithday @home.

Chloe is 4 months old le!

Chloe is 4 months old le but she is sick so cannot bring her out to enjoy and have prawning session with Godpa and family. Hope she will recover real soon!

Baby Chloe is sick :(

Poor Baby Chloe is sick because Mummy is sick and passed the virus to her. It is sad to see her coughing away, having running nose and breathe with phlegm in her. Wanted to bring her to see doctor yesterday le but becos its public holiday and my best fren’s wedding, we have no choice but to wait. today, we brought her to see Dr Siaw and he says that Chloe has got bronchitis. ALthough her case is mild, but these few days are crucial and we have to keep her at home, avoid going out, monitor her temp. In case she is running a temp or feeling breatheless, we will need to seek further medical care. Poor Chloe is crying away, cannot sleep well or eat well... it is sad to see her in discomfort, and I really felt guilty since I brought back the virus and patrick and mummy are also down and unwell……hope everyone will recover soon, including myself.

3 weeks have past since I go back to work

Time flies….. Eversince going back to work, I have been so busy… busy with work, rushing  to express milk, rushing home to see BB and have to look after BB at night. I guess I have not yet adapt to this kind of schedule and hence, I fall ill… since last thurs, I have been having sore throat and till now I have not yet recover. Pray for God’s strength to see me through work, my part time milk career and caring for baby…..

Chloe’s Infant Baptism

Today is the day! Standing in front of everyone means declaring that we, as Baby Chloe’s parents would like to bring her up in the fear and love of the Lord and that we would like to dedicate her to the Lord. Well, even b4 I got pregnant, my prayer has already been, Lord bless us with a child and we will dedicate the child to your service. And may we remember this day and bring up Chloe the godly way. Amen!

Carrying Chloe awaiting Pastor to bless her.

Guess what! While Pastor Peter is praying, Chloe is shouting at the top of her voice. OMG! That’s very rude of her!

Pastor Peter blessing Chloe in the name of the Father, and of the Son and of the Holy Ghost.

I’m a child of God!

no longer 24/7

Time really flies and today marks the last day of my maternity leave. Tomorrow, early in the morning, I will need to report back to school. This time round, unlike my pregnancy days, carrying Chloe in my tummy, I’ll be going back alone. For the past 15 months (10 months in tummy n 3 months taking care of her) L have always been there all the while…. but from tomorrow onwards no more 24/7….

好舍不得呀！Although I have faith that our Lord will take good care of BB Chloe, but I think I will just miss her badly :(

Nevertheless, pray that I can still continue my milking career smoothly n that Lord will help me and BB to enter this transition into next phase smoothly…

With God, everything is possible… Amen

Prawning Fun!!!

Prawning with cousins 31-10-09

Jaylen and Chloe

母子连心part1

母子连心part2

Victory for the Tay Family

Chloe celebrating first Bday for Daddy

On 24 Oct 2009, This is the first time Chloe celebrated Daddy’s Bday and many more to come!

妈妈和予欣

看着予欣一天一天的长大，一点一点的学习是在我看来，最幸福的事之一。宝宝每天都在变，每天都在学习，真的真的好想参与宝宝生活的每一分每一秒。但是我知道，身为事业女性的我， 这并不可能。随着日子一天一天的过去，我回到工作岗位的日期也逼进了。还有14天我就不能和宝宝时时刻刻地在一起了=（

 

现在正在读一本龙应台写的书，好喜欢作者所写的：

 

[ 我，坐在斜阳浅照的石阶上，望着这个眼睛清亮的小孩专心地做一件事；是的，我愿意等上一辈子的时间，让他从从容容地把这个蝴蝶结扎好，用他五岁的手指。孩子你慢慢来，慢慢来]

 

是的，我愿意为了予欣等上一辈子，孩子你慢慢来，慢慢来。。。

Baby went out alone with Mummy

Yesterday was the first time I brought Baby Chloe out alone and I drove while she sits in the car seat.... This is a challenge to me as I'm afraid she will cry and I cannot attend to her. Anyway, tried bringing her to see fifth uncle.... though its near and just two traffic lights away, I'm pleased that I have finally did it!
=)

Baby Chloe is rejecting milk bottle!

It has been 3 days and BB still rejects milk bottle.... milk bottle was given as I'll be going back to work in 4 weeks time... Today I went online to do some research and realised I'm not alone. Many pple tried using different bottles but to no avail... what shall I do? should I also try all bottles available??? whahaha... waste $$... anyway, I think the key is patience and persistence... but my poor mum who will be the caregiver will have her patience and persistence challenged!

Pls pray for Bb Chloe to stop rejecting bottle....

the first Mid-Autumn Festival 2009

though its a belated celebration (as yesterday was raining), we still managed to have our first mid- autumn festival with Chloe

最幸福的事

幸福 = 和心爱的人在一起，哪怕只是简简单单的卧在床上，什么也不做，也一样很幸福 =）

Milk Bank!

My Milk Bank! Hohohoho... :P

Baby Chloe is 2 Months Old Ler

Look at her serious face :)
She's two months old ler.

Chloe is smiling....

Today marks the start of the second F1 race in Singapore as well as the first smile of Chloe! Everyday prior t this, I do see Chloe flexing her fae muscle and smile involuntary but today.... she did it voluntarily and responded to my mum's talking by smiling.... Hoe to see her respond more and smile more obviously....

Pics of Baby Chloe with loved ones_1

I'm trying to collect photos of my loved ones....

Trying to take pics of my fam, relatives and friends with BB.... =) Hope I can get this done soon!

Princess Chloe slept thru a night

Today, BB surprised me and gave me a shock. Chloe slept @ 11 plus as usual and this morning, when I woke up, it was oredi 6.30am.... I was extremely shocked and my first thought was is Chloe ok??? I got up to check on he oni to notice a soundly asleep BB. Chloe's last fed was @ 11 plus... which means she had gone 6 hours plus without food. I quickly woke Patrick up and ask him if I shld wake her up for milk. Anyway, we didnt and I began to pump milk. It is oni after the long stretch of 6 hours that my breast become very full and for the first time my milk actually actually drip alot and wet my blouse. It was also for the very first time that my breasts were so hard and painful. Of course, today's yield was good after 6 long hours of storing and I actually need two avent cuo to collect my milk... hee hee... Will continue to pray and work hard for better yield....

Y am I so concerned about storing my milk? Cos I'll nid to report back to work on Nov 5 and nid to work till one week after sch closes... Things will become very uncertain after I went back to work but I wished to continue to give BB breastmilk and was praying to be able to give BB breastmilk for as long as I can. Of cos, my aim is @ least until Dec....

Anyway, Chloe being able to sleep thru the night brightens my day and I am hoping for more sleep thru night! >_<

Pics of Baby Chloe

Baby Chloe is growing day by day and I really enjoy being part of her growing process!

Contented with the amount I have pumped

This took place on 18-09-09

Today Im so happy that I managed to pump 120ml..... This is the best yield I have so fast.... I'm going to perserve to the end, if God permits...... I'll total BF till Nov and semi BF till Dec or even longer.... Think that's the best I can give BB Chloe as I'll be back ti work in Nov for abt 2 weeks and officially stating nxt year brand new again.... Praying that my yield will always be so good! Hee Hee....

Chloe first visit to the East Coast Park

Today, after worshipping the Lord, we went to East Coast Park to meet Richard and gang.... It has been a long time since we go out with them and today, we brought Chloe to join the gang.

@ the beach, I had a different atmosphere for breastfeeding, sitting down on the bench, enjoying the sea breeze, and breastfeeding! Baby Chloe has two feeds @ the beach. Thus, BB slept in her cosy pram, enjoying the fresh air and sea breeze.... and she had a good 2 hrs nap!

Here are some pics we take @ the beach....

Am I going to say bye bye to my milking career soon?

These two days I have been feeling stressed up again as my milk supply seems to be decreasing again.... After taking motilium as prescribed by Elder Lim, my milk supply did increase abit and I could pump about 80ml when BB did not feed... however these two days, when I pump, its oni 40-60ml..... Juz what have gone wrong again? I am feeling so worn out and depressed as I am writing this post.... Nevertheless, I'll still trust in the Lord, if he allows me to continue BF, then my supply will definitely be sufficient.... Juz that if I cant pump enuff, then I'll not be able to go out or even store for rainy days...... =(

Princess Chloe is 50 days old....

Time flies and wait for no man. It has been 50 days since Chloe arrived but it seems that I have only given birth yesterday...... Looking at little Chloe as she sleeps so soundly.... all my tiredness has been dissolved. Seeing her grow day by day, all of a sudden, I tot to myself that.... 小宝贝，别长得太快，妈妈怕来不及尽情地享受你成长的这个可爱的阶段。

Baby First Hair Cut

Baby Chloe went for her first hair cut to remove all her born hair and eyebrow! And now she's botak! :P

First Jab at CCK polyclinic

It pains me when little Chloe cries while taking jab, like as though the jab is piercing my flesh!

The First Lord's Day when Chloe attend Church...

Chloe's first time in her ferrari car seat... Thank you TTFers Uncles and Aunties for the gift!


Chloe's first time in her pram.....

On the first Lord's Day to church, after service, we went to Chloe's paternal grandparents house for the first time... after that, mummy went shopping @ centrepoint for the first time after birth... what a different shopping experience!!! Blink Blink! =P

Chloe is one month old le!!

backdated post 28-08-09

Praise the Lord.... Our Baby Chloe has finally turned one month old... time flies... on 28 and 29 of Aug, we had a full month celebration for her and on the 28, all her relatives came to see her.... On 29, our friends and colleagues came too!

Chloe with Neighbour's little Janelle

Janelle and Chloe


Chloe looking at the camera...


Chloe introducing her new friend to us.... haha



backdated post- 27-08-09


When the two girls meet....

So Cute!!!